an injured ankle , torn the ligaments in my left ankle due to a sprain a year ago - im doing physion excercises at my small apartment , but i was told i will need it operating on - it is very weak and can easily give way if i put my foot on the floor at the wrong angle..
i have a small sized penis , only just 6 inches , not as thick as other guys girls , the skin is cracked on the penis head , torn, im waiting to see a dermotologist for a 3rd opinion, after the last dermatologist said there was no skin disorder - i was told excessive masturbation could of caused it.
also the head of my penis is small to, not big and broad like a mushroom.
i live alone on disability in a small apartment, i own nothing except an old dusty computer - no carpets on floor etc .
waiting to get the right therapy, ive aged prematurly, im starting from scratch , i have no work history, a criminal record 7 years ago, been in a psyche hospital years ago , a disadvantaged past etc.
my only goal is to move abroad and leave england, near the coast.
but for now i live in squalor , i own nothing, i cant afford nice things either.
no xbox, no digi camera, no mobile phone, no clothes ( i literally wear rags ) - no laptops, no big tv, no cable , no sky.
i own nothing accept an old computer.
i have no social support network accept my mother and a few online friends.
I truly feel isolated and ' trapped ' in life, like it will take too long to get what i would like?
30 years old , suffered a hard life , abuse, bullying, physical attacks, head injuries, mental abuse etc - ive missed out on everything a normal person takes for granted : being employed , getting qualifications , building relationships , having a partner , owning my own home, having a life , having a career .
ive made mistakes in the past, have a criminal record for assault, carrying a knife when i lived in a rough neighborhood , a long psychiatric record , 2 years ago i was diagnosed with BPD and ptsd, im aggraphobic , have very low esteem, having rage problems and aggression which i managed well for years..
im waiting for help from an occupational therapist to attend a local resource centre where they do different activities to get me integrating with folks because ive been isolated for so long..
theyve told me thers no individual psychotherapy in my area , which is what i wanted for my complex issues.
i live alone in a small apartment on diability in england, i have no possessions except a dusty old computer..
the local community outside are aloof, stand offish an seem unaccepting of me, theyve been that way for a while , but ive tried to ignore it , i worry its because of my rage outburst in the past that used to happen in public..
or the fact im very guarded and aloof to because of the way life treated me.
im aloof back to them because i think ' fck them truly, if they cant see im trying and their going to treat me like im contaminated biohazard then fck them '
i truly worry im trapped like this forever with no way out, my goals are to leave england , live abroad , somewhere hot and coastal , a decent paid job in computers ........ but that goal seems unachievable , out of reach and far off..
and with my disadvantages ?
my past ?
the way people treat me ?
possible stigmas ?
no social support network ?
what will i do ?
im sure you will agree , i have more problems than most - the most worst problems in the world ?
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